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This is an update I was hoping I would never have to write. Grandmom passed away this morning. 
She had been doing pretty well after her surgery, but she took a turn for the worse and had to go back to the hospital. She was in a lot of pain and feeling really sick. We found out she had gallstones and the doctors wanted to do surgery, but she was already so weak that they didn't think she'd survive it and she had a DNR, so they had her on meds to make her comfortable and she just couldn't fight anymore.
Please keep our family in your thoughts!
R.I.P. Mary M. AKA Grandmom (9/19/1935 - 5/30/2016) [I am not revealing her last name here for privacy reasons]. Until we meet again...
She had been doing pretty well after her surgery, but she took a turn for the worse and had to go back to the hospital. She was in a lot of pain and feeling really sick. We found out she had gallstones and the doctors wanted to do surgery, but she was already so weak that they didn't think she'd survive it and she had a DNR, so they had her on meds to make her comfortable and she just couldn't fight anymore.Please keep our family in your thoughts!
R.I.P. Mary M. AKA Grandmom (9/19/1935 - 5/30/2016) [I am not revealing her last name here for privacy reasons]. Until we meet again...
Fanfic commissions open!
I've been practicing more on my writing (I've written a few PGSM fics and a couple of Sailor Moon one-shots lately and I'm still working on them) and I've decided to start opening up writing commissions. Price: $5 per page USD. I base this on a size 12, single-spaced font in Microsoft Office. I take PayPal or points (preferably PayPal. Use the friend option instead of business option when you pay me). My PayPal address is laneydelko@gmail.com Don't pay me until we agree on the project. How long does it take? * Depends on the project, the length, and how many projects I have to do, but rarely more than a month. I will contact you if there's any delays. What fandoms do I write for/have I ever written for? * I currently write for or have written for: Sailor Moon (original anime) PGSM Jem (cartoon) InuYasha, except Yasha Hime Mighty Morphin Power Rangers Felicity (the JJ Abrams series) CSI: Miami Mermaid Melody Neon Genesis Evangelion S-cry-ed Buzzer Beat (j-drama with Keiko Kitagawa and Yamapi) Full House Law & Order: SVU (Olivia/Elliot only, and I have only written a couple of one-shots for a friend so far) Tenchi Universe I'm open to other fandoms, but those are the ones I'm the most familiar with. Please don't ask for Naruto, Bleach, Adventure Time, Codename: KND, Total Drama,Steven Universe, Ben 10, Teen Titans GO, Gumball, Uncle Grandpa, Gravity Falls,Harry Potter, Twilight, 50 Shades of Grey, Game of Thrones, LotR, Once Upon a Time, Hunger Games, Marvel, DC Comics, Star Wars, Star Trek, Stranger Things, modern Disney/Pixar. Please ask first for others, because I may not be familiar with the fandom, dislike it, or simply may prefer not to write for it. If it's an unfamiliar fandom and I accept your commission, I'll need detailed information on the story, characters, etc... What do I prefer to write? * I'm a hopeless romantic when it comes to my fandoms, but I also write: Drama Angst Crime Comedy (no crack fics) or a combination of those. I'm not very good at action, sci-fi, or explicit sex scenes. What won't I write? * Explicit slash/femslash. I have nothing against same-sex relationships (hell, I ship Rei/Minako and Haruka/Michiru), but like I said, I'm not good with sex scenes in general and slash/femslash is even harder to do well. Excessive blood and gore Religious or political content (I'm socially and fiscally conservative usually, and an atheist, but still prefer not to write stories on these topics) Anything that promotes, romanticizes, or glorifies abusive relationships, child abuse, animal cruelty, or pedophilia. I write stories containing some of these themes, but I don't condone that type of stuff. Fetish fics Self-inserts Request form: Title of fic: Fandom(s) : Genre(s) : Character(s)/pairing(s) : Summary/plot: One-shot or Multi-chapter (outline ideas of what you want in each chapter. Please be clear and specific) : Email (so I can send your story to you. I won't post it on here, but you can as long as you credit me) : Other info, if applicable: Request by emailing me at laney_m916@gmx.com or in the comments. I don't check my inbox on this site often. I don't do refunds unless there's a problem on my end. If you bitch at me or nag, I will drop the project. Thank you!
5/22 update
My Rheumatologist follow up appointment went pretty well. He's the first doctor who ever tried to figure out why I'm always fatigued and in pain and dealing with so many other seemingly random symptoms. My Primary Care doctor is concerned but I needed a specialist so they referred me. My lab work was okay. I have a slightly high ANA level, but he isn't worried about it right now. The hand x-rays showed joint erosion in my fingers (inflammatory Arthritis) and he saw something in my left ring finger so I have to get MRIs of my hands. I got it set for May 31. He said I have Fibromyalgia, which is a Central Nervous System disorder that causes chronic pain and fatigue, among many other issues. He gave me a muscle relaxer prescription, Cyclobenzaprine to take at bedtime for my back pain and to help me sleep better (he mentioned a brand name that begins with an F, but I forget what it is. I got a generic drug though because my insurance doesn't charge for generics). He doesn't want to give more medications until the MRIs are back. He also thinks I should have a sleep study and see a Dermatologist (he thinks I have Psoriasis, which may or may not be from the Fibromyalgia). I'm thinking about doing the sleep study and I will probably wait until we go over the MRIs to schedule the Dermatologist appointment. He said that can wait until I see him again in July. Plus my insurance company may have to authorize it first. I'm still working on my fic ideas, if only I wasn't so exhausted and in so much pain. I have parts of the next chapters for my Power Rangers/CSI: Miami crossover, another Power Rangers fic, and my Jem fic written. I just need to finish and edit them.
Update
It's been pretty busy. Health is about the same but I've been working on it. I'm taking meds for anxiety, depression, ADHD, and PTSD/nightmares and I've been seeing a primary care provider and a psychiatrist/counselor, last week I was tested for various learning disabilities, and today I had my first visit with a rheumatologist. He had me get more labs done and I have to get hand X-Rays because I have arthritis, which I knew about, and he wants to see what type I have or if I have another disorder that causes joint and muscle pain, chronic fatigue, weakness, dry mouth (part of it is my meds), dry, flaky, itchy skin, and other symptoms I described to him. I'm still trying to find a place that takes my insurance for the scans but the labs are done. I'm just waiting for the results. Good news is I lost a few pounds. I cut back on the Pepsi (Still drink it sometimes but not like I was before) and I was sick to my stomach on Easter weekend, though I made up for that during the week with my leftover holiday dinner. It was an IBS flare up, made worse by an over the counter med to treat a certain symptom of it that I'm not gonna say on this post. I'm also working with a vocational rehabilitation program to help me get a job that fits my medical needs and social skills issues and at the same time, still looking into getting Disability. I'm still brainstorming and outlining my fic ideas, but my brain won't cooperate with me to actually write much. I can't seem to find the words to phrase things because of learning and communication issues. I'm looking for a co-writer (or more, depending on the fandom/story) or possibly something like a ghost writer, though I don't know how I'd make the latter work. I can't afford to pay for it right now. XD I'm poor! I'm currently working on some fic ideas in the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers, Jem, and Felicity fandoms, and I have a crossover for MMPR/CSI: Miami too. I'm getting sleepy and my hands and wrists hurt, along with everything else so I'm gonna stop here for now. Later!
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Mood: 🤒 Currently Watching: MasterChef Australia Listening to: My cat Dragon purring and dog Leo playing with a toy Eating: Nothing Drinking: Soy milk It's been almost 6 months since Mom left us. Everything's pretty much gone to 💩. We miss her so much and we've been really struggling to live/function without her. She kept everything running and was basically the heart of the family. Even Dragon and Leo are feeling her loss. My health hasn't been good. I'm struggling with mental health issues (Social Anxiety Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, PTSD), ADHD, sensory processing issues, difficulty tolerating heat and cold, asthma, memory issues/brain fog, insomnia, and chronic pain and fatigue, among other things. Still don't know why I'm sick and tired all the time and dealing with so many problems, but I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow and seeing what happens, and I'm gonna see if I qualify for Disability. I hope I can get some answers. I can't live like this anymore. I'm getting worse as I get older (and I'm only 36) and I'm tired of everything. I need a break. On top of that, I'm having to practically be my stepdad's helper/caregiver and therapist because he can't do much of anything without Mom. He vents a lot of his frustration about everything to me and asks for advice and depends on me so much that I'm beyond burned out and overwhelmed at having to process everything all at once. Mom was his therapist and had a lot more patience than I do, plus I struggle to communicate things verbally. I can't find the words, especially when I'm put on the spot. We don't drive (my stepdad because he's epileptic, my brother because he's autistic and functionally about 8 or 10-ish, and me because of severe anxiety and drivers here are idiots who think the traffic rules don't apply to them, plus the area is too crowded), so we have to walk or take the bus to get around, usually we walk. We're making grocery trips at least a couple times a week with a walker that has a seat and a little compartment under it that we use to carry some of the heavy bags and put the rest on top. This past week though, it seems like we walked there almost every day. My stepdad is 65, almost 66 so he has a lot of aches and pains and gets tired and fatigued too, and exertion actually triggers his seizures sometimes. So I get that he needs help with the food shopping and I don't have a problem with that. It's just been overload. He needs me for trips to the bank too because he doesn't know the bus routes, which I don't either but he still prefers me to go. Online grocery shopping has expensive delivery fees (I can't afford Walmart+ or Instacart+ right now) or I'd do that more often. Walmart charges $7.95 or $9.95 for delivery, depending on the time you schedule it which is ridiculous and doing that once a week or every other week adds up. I don't recall how much Instacart is, and Publix is expensive enough in-store. Online is higher. And inflation is evil! Aside from this stuff, I've been watching MasterChef Australia (I'm American, but I like international programs also), ER, Jem, and Deadly Women to get some "me time" and decompress. Mostly it's MasterChef Australia right now. I'm up to the middle of season 10 and I love it. The contestants seem more down to earth and supportive than the American version, which has more drama and catty attitudes. I like the American version because of the cooking though. I like seeing what people create and getting information about the ingredients and tips from the judges. I like cooking and baking too, though I'm not a strong cook and don't have the knife skills (and I lack the strength in my upper body and hands) or a lot of cooking/baking equipment. I wanna try new foods as well. I love Asian and Italian flavors especially, and desserts. I get excited when there's a dessert challenge on MasterChef. 😋
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I am so very sorry for your loss Laney. 
It is always such a difficult time when we have to say good by to a family member and I know you were pretty close to your grandma. I will certainly keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. May she Rest In Peace.
It is always such a difficult time when we have to say good by to a family member and I know you were pretty close to your grandma. I will certainly keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. May she Rest In Peace.